Tag: visual processing disorder

I Bought Myself a Spectrometer!

Hi, I have been making a lot of videos about how I perceive light and colour in a different way to those around me. I have often wondered if I am ‘seeing’ differently or ‘processing’ differently so I bought myself a spectrometer!

My Discoveries & Thoughts

I perceive light differently I constantly perceive subtle changes in the colour spectrum in the atmosphere. For instance just looking at the sky I can perceive when there is an increase in violet light or decrease in red light. I have been testing my observations with my spectrometer readings, and I find that how I perceive the light does not always tally with what my spectrometer picks up.

My brain sometimes processes the relative intensity of wave lengths in a way that is atypical. This means that I might perceive some wave lengths as less intense or more intense than I see on my spectrometer.

(incidentally my colour sensitivity is so extreme that I can’t look at the intensity of a colour spectrum so my husband removed the colour and sent me a black and white line graph for my observation.)

I feel the change in the light as much as I perceive it visually. I know if there is more violet light because I will feel more intuitive or suddenly have a desire to eat crunchy food. I know if there is more red light because I will feel more grounded and have a desire to eat softer foods.

My imbalanced way of seeing the light moves me and shapes me. It sharpens my intellect, helps me tune into my emotions and heightens my creativity and intuition.

I live by the light meaning that from when I get up the morning I have half an eye out to check what the light is doing. How I see the light affects all my choices of the day – what I wear, what I eat, what I do and how I relate to myself and other people. When I perceive more violet light I am more creative and intuitive. When I perceive more red light I am more into my home projects.

Living by the Colours I See in the Light – The Joys and Challenges of Having Ambient Colour Sensitivity

Video Snippet: Stormy Days – There is a Lot of Energy Out There!

On stormy days I feel intense and often agitated. I struggle to think clearly and in the end I just have to get on with something and the more intense it is the better!

Video Snippet – Sometimes the Colours Look Wrong to My Brain!

Every day the colours change as the light changes. Sometimes colours look ‘wrong’. Sometimes they look ‘right.’ This greatly impacts how I live my daily life.

Video Snippet – The Bright Cloud of Spontaneity and Freedom

There are many kinds of cloud and bright storm clouds make me feel so hemmed in that I just crave freedom.

Video Snippet – Being the Pusher!

In certain types of cloud I feel as if my energy is being compacted and the only answer is to be the pusher – to push through with some project or idea.


I Don’t Do Grounded – I Do Buoyant!

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Ah – grounded!! That word that I have heard so many times!

“Jennie, you’re not very grounded!”

“All you need to do is think yourself down into your feet!”

“Why don’t you go walking bare-foot very early in your garden in the morning dew?”

“Do yoga.”

“Do Tai Chi”

“Chant”

“Use magnets”

“Try bed linen with silver thread in them.”

“Make small talk, cook and sew!”

Well, I’ve tried them all and none of them worked. I remember a therapist telling me to feel into my feet. When I said “It doesn’t work for me” she looked hard at me and said “Well, in all my years of therapy you are the only person it hasn’t worked for!”

So . . . what do I do?

I have to come to terms with the fact that that I am not Mrs Super Grounded! It seems that the way I see the light tends to make me feel the opposite – away with my intuition most of the time! But I am happy there – in my random thoughts like I am having right now – blue sky thinking . . . thinking outside of the box. This is where life is for me.

I tend to perceive more blue on the spectrum than some which means I perceive less red which is probably why I don’t feel grounded.

Naturally I am a ‘blue light’ person so I don’t really need to be grounded.

How about you? Have you been struggling a long time to ground yourself when you might feel better accepting your expansive intuitive self and be happy to be a lighter buoyant person?

Maybe we should start a new feeling state trend and be happy to say “No I don’t do grounded, I do buoyant!”

Don’t put yourself down if buoyancy is your thing!

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