As my tendency is always to see higher violet light than is usual, I know now that I can sometimes see too little of any other colour on the spectrum.
This is happening right now at the beginning of March. With the high violet light, I am seeing too little blue light. I am feeling as if I am struggling to connect with anything. I have really high energy in both my hands and feet but that energy doesn’t feel connected with the rest of me.
My energy feels low in my lower arms and lower legs and the reason is that I see too little red light. I don’t feel grounded and present in myself. This energy pattern causes a block between my energy to do something (connection with the world being felt in my hands and feet) and my emotional connection (felt in my abdomen, heart and throat).
When I perceive both red and blue light as low, I feel a particular kind of disconnection. I find it harder than usual to connect with my purpose.
Signs and symptoms: I feel agitated, need people around but get stressed with much interaction. I think people are being abrupt with me when they are not. I feel grumpy, easily stressed and over-stimulated. My only release is to flit around doing a bit of this and a bit of that. I need to move when I think, walk when I speak, and am just about managing to stop my brain from whirring too wildly.
I wonder if this is a little of what it feels like to have ADHD. Are people with ADHD finding it difficult to connect with their purpose?
My solution: I do something that feels really meaningful to me like writing this post. Although I don’t feel fully connected, I at least feel the energy in my hands and feet, and I have to accept that this is my way of connecting today. I connect by speaking my truth.
February and the light is getting that little bit brighter. In fact it feels suddenly a lot brighter . . . because in my perception the violet light has woken up. Violet light is strong for me in the beginning and middle of winter too but there is nothing like the violet light of February. It feels ‘harsh.’
The reason the February light feels harsh to me is that seeing more violet light when the light is still generally not at its brightest means I see less red light to soften the blue. As the light gets brighter the red light appears in my perception again around May only to disappear again as we head into the brightest month of June.
How Does This Affect Me?
Colours look at their best
At this point between the darker light of winter and brighter light of midsummer. Even though the red is low for me, I can still see enough red to perceive colours very well except for perhaps acid yellow.
My other sensitivities are at their highest.
I am particularly sensitive to sound and white noise drives me crazy – the filling of our water tank after a bath, the fan of my computer, our kettle, the rattling of plastic bags. All these sounds make me feel jangled.
I have a lot of energy!
My brain feels like it is going at 100 mph and there is nothing I can do to slow it down!
What Do I Do?
- I celebrate the beauty of the colours
- I examine the things that causing me disturbance in the house. For instance we changed the water pressure to make the sound of the header tank filling up more bearable. And I am trying to find a new kettle!
- I try to focus on one thing at a time.
- I try to filter out any clutter whether that is thoughts or physical clutter in my environment.
- I ask other people to be as calm and slow as they can with me and to not give me too much information at once.
- I eat food that feels comforting and has a softness to me.
- I wear clothes that have a soft colour to me.
Most of all I enjoy my crazy flitty intuition that can lead on me exciting little journeys!
To read more about mine and my son’s experiences of colour sensitivity please see my book:-
I Can’t Sit on That Red Chair – The Relationship Between Sensory Processing Difficulties and Colour Sensitivity