Living with Atypical Spectral Sensitivity – I get up every morning and I don’t have a plan!
I connect when I:-
Look out of the window and see that the light is more blue than yesterday today
Choose my blue trousers that have a hint of green in them to match the light
Hear the bath water gurgling down the plughole and decide that sound is OK
Put my socks on before my trousers because my ankles like it better that way
Feel the crunch of my Nairns ginger biscuits pleasingly in my mouth
Smell the fresh scent of summer in the mint with the potatoes cooking at lunchtime
Listen to and honour my inner child and follow her wherever she want to go
Listen to others, tell my story and ask for my needs
Listen out for guidance in the form of a voice, a feeling, a sense or sensation to help me through my day.
And that is enough!
How can I have nothing to do?
Well, that is the strange thing about being a visionary. You actually can have nothing to do! And it is an embarrassing thing to admit and some people are completely dumbfounded when I tell them! One person I told even said that if they had double the time they have they still wouldn’t have enough time to do everything they need to do. Well . . . I am different.
Why do I have nothing to do?
My path is very clear to me and only certain things have energy in them. If there’s no energy, there is no life and there is no point in doing the thing that you think of doing.
If I really think can’t I find something to do?
I can see things I might do on another day or in the future but the energy isn’t in them today so it would be futile to attempt doing them today.
Will I go crazy if I have nothing to do?
I sometimes think I will(!) but then the day seems to unfold somehow and I find myself doing random things I hadn’t planned at all. Or I sit and ponder. Or I find someone to do nothing with! And I take comfort in knowing that the ‘nothing to do’ phase will pass.