Coloured Tints Can Subdue Creativity

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Having visual processing issues I have an array of coloured tinted glasses, but short of buying myself an entire box of every tint available and giving myself a diagnostic every day, I am generally not going to find the perfect tint!

Today though, I rummaged through my glasses and found a pair that worked. They seemed to bring out the reds more and made me feel more calm. So I wondered what I could do wearing my special tints. I thought ‘Well, now I am feeling more calm, I could play my guitar.’ I always improvise and thought ‘Yes, I am pretty sure I have a simple tune in my head I can play.’

After about 5 minutes of wearing my tints though, I started to feel a bit subdued. I still had that tune in my head but lacked a certain umph and edge so I took them off. Immediately I felt more free, even though a little more visually challenged. I thought ‘Can I still play my guitar?’ and then to my delight I found I had in my head a whole crazy lively blues solo just waiting for me –  complete contrast to the simple ditty I had in my head wearing the tints.

So I wonder – do we need the lightwaves and is it really healthy to be blocking them out?

I think we do need the light-waves and that coloured tints can subdue creativity.

Poem – The Red Light

 

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We need red light to help us feel grounded and connected with the world. Sometimes I perceive it strongly and other times less strongly. This all impacts how I feel and how I live.

The Red Light

Overpowered in February

Dances with the blue from March

Regains some power in May

Washed out by the brightness of June and July

From August – it dances with the blue again

November – its here to stay

Lightwatcher Story – 23rd April 2019

Yellow, yellow, yellow!

My last lightwatcher story was in March and I was struggling to see enough yellow. Now there is loads and loads of it. It is jumping out of the leaves on the trees and the moss on our lawn.

How does it make me feel?

Overly vulnerable

Slightly sleepy

Finding it difficult to do anything.

What can I do?

Not much

Rest and drink in from the April colours

Do something if I feel really inspired

Wait until the light balances again.

Something to note

Just as much as lack of yellow can make you feel down-hearted, too much yellow can make you feel lethargic and could easily be interpreted as a depressed feeling.

It is too easy to judge our moods on our feelings about our lives and ourselves. What if some of it was environmental though? To be honest this realisation does take the pressure off. I feel more at peace and more trusting that give it a few days and I will be back to my normal chirpy self again!

The Visionary – A Poem

 

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The visionary wakes in February

When the violet light is bright

In March she feels overly grounded

As the red light of winter holds onto its strength

In April she nearly goes to sleep

With the intensity of yellow and green

But in May she comes to life a little

As she sees blue and violet come onto her radar

In June she struggles with the brightness

But has plenty of creative energy.

In July she feels the wane of summer

But still likes being outward and creative

In August she starts to mourn the loss of blue

As red again takes more precedence

In September she struggles to know what to do

As one minute it is red and the next more blue

In October there is a burst of yellow

And a need for homeliness prevails

In November blue seems to reappear

But a starker version of summer

In December the light is more red and orange

And it is best to be tucked up at home

And in January there is a hint of the wonder

Of the blue and violet to come.

 

 

 

 

The Violet Light

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The Violet Light

 

February and the violet light wakes

And the light suddenly feels very bright.

March and the light is even brighter,

Meaning red and orange is back on my spectrum,

Softening the violet and blue.

 

April and moving lighter still,

Yellow and green come into their own

But red and orange are starting to fade

As blue and violet get stronger each day.

 

May and the light is nearly at its brightest.

All the colours of the spectrum seem to dance.

And then comes June with its predominance of blue

Which washes out some of the beautiful colours.

 

July and we are coming back down in brightness again

But the violet light can be very bright.

August and I start to see red,

The blue starts to fade and the violet light with it.

 

By September the world is appearing more red,

There’s a shortage of yellow and green.

In October the light has become dimmer

And yellow has reappeared but with a very reddish tinge.

 

In November there is a burst of blue

As the light is becoming dimmer.

And in December and January the red is back

The light feels heavy, red and orange.

Yellow is in short supply.

 

And then it is February and the bright violet light wakes . . .

And we start all over again!

 

What is ‘My Balanced’ ?

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Working with the light I get a real feeling for how much of our ‘balanced’ or ‘not balanced’ state is dependent on our relationship with our environment.

If I perceive a lot of violet light I can feel intuitive to the point of feeling dazed. If I perceive a lot of yellow light I can feel emotionally connected to the point of feeling teary and overly vulnerable.

But what if I perceive the light as balanced?

Well, I will take you through my experience of the spectrum.

RED – I feel quite secure and quite grounded but still prefer to have people around me.

ORANGE – I feel outspoken and comfortable asking for my needs but I have a lot of words unsaid – still inside of me – because I don’t have the opportunity or know who or where to speak them.

YELLOW – I feel emotionally connected, finding it easy to give and receive love, but then there is a lot of love that I am not sure what to do with. It doesn’t necessarily translate into making cups of tea or ironing someone’s shirt or even a hug or ‘I love you’. No – it feels bigger than those things.

GREEN – I just about manage to digest the knowledge that I am in a fact a visionary and I am raising a visionary. My head feels full of doubts and questions and a certain amount of fear but I am able to quell these and press on quite well.

BLUE – I feel single minded and full of determination whilst at the same time trusting others to help me and support me. I am however very feisty and ‘do not suffer fools gladly’. Just to add another saying ‘I call a spade a spade!’

INDIGO – I find it possible to let go and be myself without too much second guessing. Fears, doubts and questions do still flutter around quite a lot though.

VIOLET – I run with my intuition. If I think of something random to do I do it without too many questions – like this blog post. I know it feels better to run and not look around too much. My fear of my intensity is the biggest block to really letting go.

So, this is ‘my balanced’ and in many ways it doesn’t sound very balanced at all! But as a human, a visionary and a person trying to embrace my vulnerability and be real, this is as balanced as I get. Maybe I should learn to be happy with it!

I wonder what your ‘balanced’ is?

 

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Colour Sensitivity – Lightwatcher Story – 27th Dec 2018

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Wow – the fog today!

Here in Somerset UK this is what it is like outside my window. My 11 year old son kindly took this photo for me with his new action camera.

Although it is thick cloud, the light appears almost luminescent and violet. It reminds me a bit of the feeling I have when we have frost or snow. There is a powerful sense of white. And all the blues and violets around me feel very strong – as if there is too much energy in them.

How you might feel:

Full of ideas but finding it hard to formulate them.

Full of energy but struggling to find what to put it into.

My suggestion:

Stay close to community whether that is family or the larger community.

Enjoy your powerful feelings even though it may feel difficult to harness them and utilise them.

Trust in your connection with God, yourself and all things and don’t  worry about your fuzzy brain!

 

 

 

Colour Sensitivity – Christmas Day Cloud Therapy!

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Why did the light change yesterday?!

I have been sailing on through November and December thinking the light is good. I have been able to project manage our home improvements. I have even been able to sort CD’s and books and tolerate the constant chaos of stuff around us.

Then yesterday . . . my mood suddenly changed. And it wasn’t because it was Christmas Eve! I looked around me and realised I wasn’t seeing so much yellow but was seeing more orange in the light.  This usually makes me feel a bit downhearted. I was gutted, realising that is would likely be another struggle of a Christmas Day.

And here we are  . . Christmas Day . . . and lot of black cloud!!  And grumpy wife and mum.

What can I do to cheer myself? 

Sit in the only light there is and do my jigsaw puzzle that is full of whites and neutrals. This is the best Christmas Day Cloud Therapy there is!

Colour Sensitivity – Light watcher Story – 9th Dec 2018

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The light is more blue than usual for December.

You may be feeling:

Very single minded, a bit detached, a bit lonely, a bit flitty in your thinking.

Suggestions:

Find meaningful ways to connect with others and let you voice out – what you really think and feel. Follow the thread of your thoughts and ideas and see what wonderful place they lead you to.

Colour Sensitivity – Yellow for the Heart and Green for Good Digestion!

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Our home improvements continue . . . the aim being more about feeling better than the house looking better . . . but I am open to both!

My last post was about the wonder of our white walls and how they help me to think clearly and feel brighter.

Well, today, our carpet arrived and the sudden new colour had quite a surprising reaction from me. To describe it . . . it is a sort of beige with a white speck like a highlight . . not an unusual colour for a carpet at all. It was my son who chose the colour. I would have had something a little more gold with a little more red in it. But no . . my son didn’t want to see any red. It had to be this carpet.

When I first went into our sitting-room I noticed the texture and the colour both at once and I felt like I was at the beach! I decided to be open-minded and realised the beach feeling was OK. I somehow felt lighter yet grounded at the same time. Our last carpet was a dark browny red and I realised it had made me feel stodgy and overly grounded. It has contributed to feeling that I work so hard but never get quite to where I want to go. I am staying earth-borne when I want to be air-borne. With out new carpet i feel like I might be able to fly after all!

The other noticeable thing was that I felt initially that the beige took something away from my snow-cave white walls. I felt as if any yellow or green was not allowed in our room. But when I checked out my samples for the slightly goldy beige curtains and settees I could see that yellow and green had something to say to me. They were telling me that I need them. I have noticed over the days of living in my snow cave that although enjoying being so clear thinking I felt a little emotionally detached. Seeing the extra colours come into the room I feel more in my heart and it feels right.

I really struggle with the medium frequencies of orange, yellow and green. They can appear off balance, too bright, too dull, as the season pass by. But I still need them and maybe I can take them in through other colours like beige and gold and this becomes easier within the context of my white snow cave!

If you would like to know more about my experience of colour sensitivity and how to help yourself feel better by gaining a greater understanding of your relationship with colour you might like to have a look at my book.

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