The Violet Light

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The Violet Light

 

February and the violet light wakes

And the light suddenly feels very bright.

March and the light is even brighter,

Meaning red and orange is back on my spectrum,

Softening the violet and blue.

 

April and moving lighter still,

Yellow and green come into their own

But red and orange are starting to fade

As blue and violet get stronger each day.

 

May and the light is nearly at its brightest.

All the colours of the spectrum seem to dance.

And then comes June with its predominance of blue

Which washes out some of the beautiful colours.

 

July and we are coming back down in brightness again

But the violet light can be very bright.

August and I start to see red,

The blue starts to fade and the violet light with it.

 

By September the world is appearing more red,

There’s a shortage of yellow and green.

In October the light has become dimmer

And yellow has reappeared but with a very reddish tinge.

 

In November there is a burst of blue

As the light is becoming dimmer.

And in December and January the red is back

The light feels heavy, red and orange.

Yellow is in short supply.

 

And then it is February and the bright violet light wakes . . .

And we start all over again!

 

Sensory Processing Disorder – The Prayer of The Highly Sensitive Child

Dear Mr God:  About My Heart

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My heart feels a bit empty sometimes. I can feel disappointed with myself. Life feels difficult and I seem to make other people’s lives difficult too. I am worried sometimes that I am not good enough and although I try my best I am scared that what I do – things like writing and drawing – may not be okay. I compare myself to other people a lot and often think that they are better than me. Please help me realise that I am good enough. Help me to receive praise and to let it into my heart. I think  that love is enough and that you just love me for who I am. I really like to give too. Giving makes me feel really good in my heart. Please give me ideas about how I can open up my big heart and give the love that is inside of me to my family, community and the wider world. 

Dear Mr God: About My Arms and Hands 

armsSometimes when I don’t have enough cuddles or spend enough time with special people my arms feel empty. Please teach me about intimacy and how closeness is so important. As I get older  I may not want so many cuddles but I know I will still like touch. Please help my Mum/Dad to remember to play wrestling with me and give me high fives. Hold me when I am sad and I don’t have anyone else to cuddle me. I want to be able to sleep by myself but please help Mum/Dad to understand that sometimes I need to feel  close to them to be able to relax enough to sleep. Show them how much I need to feel my connection with them as I feel my connection with you. 

Please help me to be ‘hands on’ with things. I know I am a bit cautious and sometimes hold back from playing with sand or paint or water but really I know that I need it and that it is one important way that I connect with the world. I don’t like touching all things but some things feel so good to me – the smooth bark on a tree, Mum’s furry coat, making dough, laying down in a grassy field. Help me work out what I like and what I don’t like and then me and Mum/Dad can really enjoy the things I like together. 

Dear Mr God: About My Shoulders

upper backMy shoulders feel a bit tight sometimes especially when I have been told off. Please help Mum/Dad to be gentle with me even when I have done something to displease them. When I get upset I feel so bad in my body and don’t feel I can breathe properly. It would help if they could use a gentle voice and not look scary even when they are not pleased with something I have done. Please teach me that I need a lot of support and help and that this is okay. 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Throat

throatSometimes my voice feels blocked. I know I have a big voice but I can’t seem to find it. I don’t like listening to other people that much. It just feels too much and that I can’t hear myself think and I can’t hear my own voice. I like it when I am the teacher and when I am the leader. Then I suddenly feel better and my voice gets bigger and I feel happier. I know I am a child so I can’t always teach and lead but if I can do it sometimes it helps. Please help Mum/Dad to have ideas for how I can teach and lead sometimes.

Please help me see that it is okay to ask for what I need. When we are out please help my Mum/Dad to be my advocate and tell other people that I am sensitive and sometimes need special things or to be treated in a particular way. Please also teach me to speak up for myself so I can become an advocate for other highly sensitive people.

Dear Mr God: About My Head and Neck 

headI don’t know yet really who I am like other children don’t know but sometimes I think I see clues about who I am. Please help Mum/Dad to listen when I try to tell them who I think I am and please help me find who I am and then equip me to be fully myself. 

 

 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Feet

feetMy feet feel stuck sometimes and like they don’t know what to do. They have no life in them. And then at other times I feel like I am not really on the ground – like my feet aren’t really contacting the ground at all. I want to feel like I am here on the earth and that I am safe. Please help Mum/Dad teach me about love because surely that is the biggest thing that we can experience. Help them teach me that my feet are rooted in love and about joy and peace too because these are my heart song. I live to feel love and joy and peace and so want other people to experience that too. I like mindfulness, and meditating is okay but really I want to know that I am always okay to be in the world. When I am meditating sometimes I feel I am in a blank space and I don’t like that. And then when I finish meditating I have to come back to the world which is funny as well – a shock somehow – like landing on earth with a bump. Really I would like to feel that I am okay all the time – safe all the time. Please help Mum/Dad show me that your love is enough to keep me safe. 

Dear Mr God: About my Upper Legs 

legsI sometimes don’t feel like I belong. I just feel too different. Please help me find my place. Show me that people are everywhere. They are in my family and then they come to the door with packages and we see them at the supermarket. There are people in the parks and in my group activities. Show me that people are all ages and all different and that it is good to just be part of the community. Help me find my confidence to talk to people, to say ‘Hi’ to the window cleaner or to ask the children at the park if I can play football with them. Please keep showing me that I will find my place if I just keep being part of community.

 

Dear Mr God: About My Lower Legs

legsI sometimes feel stuck in my life like other people are moving forward and I am not. Please help me see that moving forward isn’t about achievement and acquiring lots of things but that is about being open to the journey of my life. Help me see that we never really stand still and that just by getting up and getting involved in life I am moving forwards and growing up. 

 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Lower Back 

lower-backI sometimes feel a bit weak in what I believe. I am not sure about saying what I think and having an opinion. Being highly sensitive, life feels difficult and I feel things differently to other people. This means I probably think differently and I am scared sometimes to say what I think I know. Please help me to be strong in myself. Teach me that we are all unique and it is okay to be my own person with my own thoughts, beliefs and opinions. 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Middle Back 

middle backI don’t feel as strong as some other children. I seem to be more easily upset, bothered and frightened of things. Please teach me about vulnerability. I think vulnerability can be my strength. Although other people look tough I think it can be a mask and that really everyone has needs and feels weak sometimes. Please tell me that I have a very special gift because I have the desire to be authentic and fully myself.

 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Lower Abdomen  

lower-abdomenSometimes I just don’t know what to do to make myself feel okay. Please help me be creative. I don’t know how to do this because if I try to make something from a book or write someone else’s story or play someone else’s music I don’t feel too good. Please show my Mum/Dad that my creativity needs to come from deep within myself. Help them teach me how to look for inspiration in my life and the world around me on a daily basis. Help them show me the importance of my story.

Help me to try working with lots of different materials when I am being creative.  I really like the computer because it responds to me – a bit like another person really. Also the computer doesn’t mind me making mistakes. It just deletes them for me. I really need help to write my letters and draw something and use paint because I am frightened I don’t know the exact way to use these things and that I will make a mistake. Please show me that using my hands to make things and touching materials is a special experience that I need to feel good even though the materials may not be as responsive as a computer.

Dear Mr God: About My Upper Abdomen

upper-abdomenI sometimes don’t feel very powerful, when I feel unsure about myself and the situations I am in. Please help Mum/Dad show me that power isn’t about strength or control but it is really just about being myself. Please help me recognise the times when I am really being myself like when I am climbing trees with my friend or building a rocket on my special computer programme or helping Mum to make tea. 

 

 

Dear Mr God: About My Stomach:  

stomachSometimes I feel a bit empty as if I am continuously hungry for something. Please teach be about being content with what I have but always leaving a little bit of room for more. Help Mum/Dad teach me that the most important things are relationship, love, being creative and being true to myself because that is what I think you are showing me.

 

 

 

Highly Sensitives, Are We Frightened of Our Own Intensity?

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I usually sleep with the curtains a little open and the glow of a pink night light in the corner of our room. Lately though, I have been feeling that this might not be right for me. The light feels too intense. I don’t like to be in total darkness so I have been hanging a sheet up at the window to cover the gap between the curtains. I have also turned off the night light. Then I lay there and think ‘Surely there is nothing to disturb me now! No-one is snoring, there is no buzz of a helicopter – nothing – just me in a pleasantly dark room.’ True – I have felt more calm but not completely calm because there is one intense thing I can’t turn off or block out and that is myself!

I am intense in my relationships

I am intense in the way I parent

I am intense about my work

I am intense in my blogging!

I AM INTENSE! Not everyone is going to like it but I don’t see why I should turn myself off – in fact I CAN’T. I can’t even turn myself down!

What Type of Flower Are You?

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The Celandine

Ah, spring – just as all the leaves are about to burst forth – I always feel my energy is explosive at this time of year. But my energy is for something specific.  I can’t seem to cook or play board games or do anything where my energy is focused.  I just have to let go!

So today I painted big and painted expressive! I painted what I felt. I saw the flower – a small celandine – but I felt the flower – huge vibrant energy exploding in every direction and blending with all the energy around it.

How many of us feel like the small celandine?  It is what we see when we look in the mirror so we must be small. And yet within us all is this huge explosive energy. We know it. We feel it but can we tap into it? Can we release it?

In order to let go of our huge explosive energy we need to feed it. My celandine was growing in good, well watered soil and had been drenched in any sun that came its way.  This is why when the time came to open its petals it found it so easy and so natural to show its vibrant beauty. 

Our Body, Our Intention, Our Dance!

Today I tried to teach my son something about movement and energy. He seems to burn up a lot of energy making a whole lot of movements he doesn’t really do with control or intention. He does this all day long! This is quite normal child behaviour but when you are creative and intuitive you only thrive when you feel deep connection with yourself, others and your environment so self awareness is a must.  I taught my son that we may not be in control of our energy to the point that we can turn it down or off but we are in control or our intention to use our energy. When we line up our intention with our energy that is when we feel good!

Might your Sound Sensitive Child be Highly Musical?

This is what can happen when you give your sound sensitive child a keyboard, help them choose the sounds they like and teach them 3 chords. You don’t need to be musical yourself – just find a simple music theory book and teach yourself the basics about scales, chords and keys. Or even better  . . give the book to your child and let them teach you! 

Know Your Purpose For it Will Unlock Your Voice!

There is so much noise in today’s world that maybe children are not able to hear themselves any more – their own feelings, tastes, thoughts and opinions. Some are happy to  take on other’s thoughts and opinions and have become followers of other people – like celebrities. But others are rebelling and saying “Please be quiet. I want to hear what’s in my own head.”

 

Creative Intuitives – I Want to Hear My Own Voice !

Luca’s friend came round the other day and I talked to him and Luca about their throat and voice. Both the boys said that sometimes they didn’t want to hear what people were saying or things around them  because it seemed to interfere with what was in their own heads.

There is so much noise in today’s world that maybe children are not able to hear themselves any more – their own feelings, tastes, thoughts and opinions. Some are happy to  take on other’s thoughts and opinions and have become followers of other people – like celebrities. But others are rebelling and saying “Please be quiet. I want to hear what’s in my own head.”

I asked the boys to paint their throat or their voice and I did a painting too. And an amazing thing happened. We all started off painting our own voice but as the panting developed other people’s voices crept into our pictures. It was as if we all had this revelation that to be a lone voice is lonely and ineffective but to join voices – well, that is power!

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               ‘The Meeting of Sound-waves’ by Jacob (Age 7)

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           ‘The Joining of Voices’ by Jennie (Age 47)

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                 ‘The Universal Voice’ by Luca (Age 7)

Why not have a go and paint your voice. You may be surprised about what is inside you waiting to be expressed into the world!