Light watcher Forecast 27th Dec 2018

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Wow – the fog today!

Here in Somerset UK this is what it is like outside my window. My 11 year old son kindly took this photo for me with his new action camera.

Although it is thick cloud, the light appears almost luminescent and violet. It reminds me a bit of the feeling I have when we have frost or snow. There is a powerful sense of white. And all the blues and violets around me feel very strong – as if there is too much energy in them.

How you might feel:

Full of ideas but finding it hard to formulate them.

Full of energy but struggling to find what to put it into.

My suggestion:

Stay close to community whether that is family or the larger community.

Enjoy your powerful feelings even though it may feel difficult to harness them and utilise them.

Trust in your connection with God, yourself and all things and don’t  worry about your fuzzy brain!

 

 

 

Sensory Processing Disorder – There may be no diagnosis but it is Real!

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Today I needed to book an appointment for my son to see a dietician. When I realised that I had to go to floor 10 – the top floor of our local hospital – I broke down into tears.

Last time I had to go to the top floor of the hospital  I used the stairs because I don’t like lifts. As my husband and son needed to use the lift I asked someone to accompany me but I didn’t feel they understood my anxiety which made me feel worse.  

And what was my anxiety that day?  Was it the about light? Was it about the colour? Was it the echo of people’s feet and voices down the stairwell? Was it the feel of the cold hard walls? Was it the feeling of turning round and round too often for my brain? 

Or was it all of these mixed together and compacted into one big package of extreme sensory overload?

I think it was and this is why the memory of this day made me cry.

I wanted a way out so I asked my son how he felt about going back to the hospital? I was secretly hoping for an “I’m not going back to that place!” but instead he said “Oh yes, I think it will be fine.” Now I was on my own. I couldn’t phone up the hospital and say that my son had anxiety and needed help. I would have to own my anxiety.

After much procrastination I took the bull by the horns and phoned the dietician back and said those liberating words “I have a processing problem.” I explained I didn’t like lifts or stairs. The dietician was fine about this, even though I detected faint surprise in her voice! She simply said she would refer us to the community dietician who could visit us at home or a GP’s surgery

I felt 10 feet tall. I had faced my greatest fear and admitted my greatest need. I didn’t feel silly. After all who can say how the brain of another person makes them feel when they are on the 10th floor of a building? Who? Nobody.

So next time you don’t want to look silly and admit your greatest need, remember not to use anyone else as an excuse, to be brave and stand up for the hidden no-diagnosis condition which is Sensory Processing Disorder!

 

 

 

How do You Keep Your Heart Open?

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I know I ‘see’ people’s energy but it doesn’t mean I have all the answers to life, the universe and everything! However I have some answers and answers come when we ask questions. The question I have been asking for a long time is ‘How do we keep our hearts open?’ I’ve asked this question because I know how good open heartedness feels. We don’t just feel warm and fuzzy but we breath better, digest better, speak with more conviction, think more clearly,  have a strong back, energetic legs, enthusiastic arms  and happily let in others. I also know that closing our hearts can cause us to feel the opposite of all the above leading to anxiety, depression and fatigue.

So . . . How Do We Keep Our Hearts Open?

We need to:-

  • Embrace the wonderful feeling of security in our lives – home, friends, family, community, nature, routine – anything that helps us feel more secure.

  • Connect with something that makes us feel inspired – art, music, movement, nature,  our passions.

  • Express our true selves and speak our truth.

  • Know we are loved and good enough as we are.

  • Trust God/Our Purpose.

So . . . What Closes Our Hearts?

  • Trying to be independent.

  • Connecting with things that don’t inspire us.

  • Living too much in our heads and our thinking.

  • Believing we are unlovable and that there is something inherently wrong with us.

  • Trusting only ourselves.

    Which do you choose?

 

 

 

 

Let Your Soul Fly Free!

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Carve time and space into your day to stop and ponder.

Allow yourself to trundle into your right brain sometimes.

Listen to your inner voice and trust your gut and intuition.

See the world through your inner eyes often.

Look for inspiration for your life and your creative ideas at every twist and turn.

Ask lots of questions about your life and your place in the world.

Open your heart as wide as it will go and embrace your vulnerability!