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If you understand your state, then you can understand your needs. If you understand your needs, then you can fully live your life.
Today is a beautiful day and we planned an early cliff top walk at the sea. I have lot of pair of glasses now to treat my different phorias and felt sure I could find one in my collection for the phoria of the day. But I didn’t. Then I realised that my eye gaze was going IN and DOWN. This was a phoria that I hadn’t previously identified. Suddenly I understood why I felt a bit unstable and wobbly plus quite emotional at the thought of needing another pair of glasses!
We went down to the sea and when we arrived on the front (still in the car,) I noted that I felt a bit insecure. Also my light sensitivity wasn’t good. At this point I was wearing just prescription glasses with no prism. Then as the sun came come out, I guessed that my phoria would be an UP and OUT and my IN DOWN glasses worked very nicely.
However as we walked up the cliff, the weather changed and it became more overcast. I felt my insecure feelings again and the higher we got up the cliff, the more insecure I felt. I then actually felt that my eyes were going DOWN and IN. I felt hemmed in and a bit alone even though I was safe with my family. And in that moment I remembered lots of family holidays as a child where I felt exactly the same thing. Out of nowhere I would feel so insecure and in those moments no-one seemed able to reach me.
Now I know it is just a phoria and not a deep psychological emotional issue. I feel so relieved and like a weight as been lifted off my shoulders.
What Can I Do About it?
I need a pair of glasses with prism to redirect my gaze.
The prisms I need are Right and Left eye – Prisms O.25 OUT and O.25 UP. I make useful acronyms and I call these my ROULOU glasses. And I have ordered them. I look forward to wearing them and finding out just how good I could feel on a sunny day on the cliff tops in July!