Someone asked me yesterday, the first thing I would do when we come out of lock-down. And, surprisingly, I couldn’t think of anything!
I always feel ‘out’ because it is about having an outward feeling.
I feel like I am ‘out’ when I look out of the window and notice the changing light and seasons.
I feel like I am ‘out’ when I connect with people all across the world through my writing – ideas and thoughts that come to me in the moment.
I feel like I am ‘out’ when I connect through my music – again in the moment – that little piece of inspiration unique to me – that I choose to share with others.
I feel like I am ‘out’ when I connect with others by phone, skype or e-mail.
I feel like I am ‘out’ when I help people find their voice from the cosiness of my dining-room.
When I go to the beach on a sunny day I don’t feel more out than all of the above . . or I might even feel more in! I can be surrounded by loads of people but never exchange a smile or a word. I feel more ‘out’ speaking today, sharing a little piece of my heart with you.
Well, that is the strange thing about being a visionary. You actually can have nothing to do! And it is an embarrassing thing to admit and some people are completely dumbfounded when I tell them! One person I told even said that if they had double the time they have they still wouldn’t have enough time to do everything they need to do. Well . . . I am different.
Why do I have nothing to do?
My path is very clear to me and only certain things have energy in them. If there’s no energy, there is no life and there is no point in doing the thing that you think of doing.
If I really think can’t I find something to do?
I can see things I might do on another day or in the future but the energy isn’t in them today so it would be futile to attempt doing them today.
Will I go crazy if I have nothing to do?
I sometimes think I will(!) but then the day seems to unfold somehow and I find myself doing random things I hadn’t planned at all. Or I sit and ponder. Or I find someone to do nothing with! And I take comfort in knowing that the ‘nothing to do’ phase will pass.
We’re not good every day givers as we are always saving some of our energy for our big plan – our vision
The muse might turn up and tell us to do something, say something or go somewhere which is tricky when you have arranged a coffee with someone and are required to do chit chat!
We tend to be one tracked. We don’t have that much energy to talk about things that are not in some way related to our vision.
We’re not good at hanging out OUT as we tend to be sensitive to everything. Take us out to a shopping mall and all the sights, sounds and smells will quickly become too much. Take us out for a walk and we may find the place too lonely or not like the sound of the wind! Yes, it can be that difficult!
Intensity is our only state and we are only really happy if we feel a lot of energy in a conversation or an activity. Once we feel the energy go down we are miserable and just want out!
So all in all we’re not too good at friendship. People can be intrigued by us for a while but when all the above kicks in we don’t see them for dust!
However we are excellent at meaningful encounters.