I Don’t Do Grounded – I Do Buoyant!

 

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Ah – grounded!! That word that I have heard so many times!

“Jennie, you’re not very grounded!”

“All you need to do is think yourself down into your feet!”

“Why don’t you walking bare-foot very early in your garden in the morning dew?”

“Do yoga.”

“Do Tai Chi”

“Chant”

“Use magnets”

“Try bed linen with silver thread in them.”

“Make small talk, cook and sew!”

Well, I’ve tried them all and none of them worked. I remember a therapist telling me to feel into my feet. When I said “It doesn’t work for me” she looked hard at me and said “Well, in all my years of therapy you are the only person it hasn’t worked for!”

So . . . what do I do?

I have to come to terms with the fact that that I am not Mrs Super Grounded! It seems that the way I see the light tends to make me feel the opposite – away with my intuition most of the time! But I am happy there – in my random thoughts like I am having right now – blue sky thinking . . . thinking outside of the box. This is where life is for me.

I tend to perceive more blue on the spectrum than some which means I perceive less red which is probably why I don’t feel grounded. In the winter I do perceive more red and less blue but then I almost feel over grounded – sort of heavy and stodgy. So I think my blue light intuitive thinking then.

Naturally I am a ‘blue light’ person so I don’t really need to be grounded.

How about you? Have you been struggling a long time to ground yourself when you might feel better accepting your expansive intuitive self and be happy to be a lighter buoyant person?

Maybe we should start a new feeling state trend and be happy to say “No I don’t do grounded, I do buoyant!”

Don’t put yourself down if buoyancy is your thing!

I Connect when I…

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I connect when I:-

Look out of the window and see that the light is more blue than yesterday today

Choose my blue trousers that have a hint of green in them to match the light

Hear the bath water gurgling down the plughole and decide that sound is OK

Put my socks on before my trousers because my ankles like it better that way

Feel the crunch of my Nairns ginger biscuits pleasingly in my mouth

Smell the fresh scent of summer in the mint with the potatoes cooking at lunchtime

Listen to and honour my inner child and follow her wherever she want to go

Listen to others, tell my story and ask for my needs

Listen out for guidance in the form of a voice, a feeling, a sense or sensation to help me through my day.

And that is enough!

 

 

 

Highly Sensitives – Your Answers are in the Lightwaves!

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Because I understand my relationship with the light, I know everything I need to know about my sensitive self in every moment of every day.

I know:-

What colour to wear

What food to eat

What sounds to listen to or avoid

What textures to enjoy or avoid

Where to go

Who to spend time with or not spend time with

What to do or not do

And that is an amazing way to live

Go on – become a Lightwatcher!

 

 

Being Highly Sensitive – Our Greatest Challenge

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Being Highly Sensitive challenges us to connect with ourselves and our environment in a way that is uniquely right just for us.

The Violet Light

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The Violet Light

 

February and the violet light wakes

And the light suddenly feels very bright.

March and the light is even brighter,

Meaning red and orange is back on my spectrum,

Softening the violet and blue.

 

April and moving lighter still,

Yellow and green come into their own

But red and orange are starting to fade

As blue and violet get stronger each day.

 

May and the light is nearly at its brightest.

All the colours of the spectrum seem to dance.

And then comes June with its predominance of blue

Which washes out some of the beautiful colours.

 

July and we are coming back down in brightness again

But the violet light can be very bright.

August and I start to see red,

The blue starts to fade and the violet light with it.

 

By September the world is appearing more red,

There’s a shortage of yellow and green.

In October the light has become dimmer

And yellow has reappeared but with a very reddish tinge.

 

In November there is a burst of blue

As the light is becoming dimmer.

And in December and January the red is back

The light feels heavy, red and orange.

Yellow is in short supply.

 

And then it is February and the bright violet light wakes . . .

And we start all over again!

 

What is ‘My Balanced’ ?

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Working with the light I get a real feeling for how much of our ‘balanced’ or ‘not balanced’ state is dependent on our relationship with our environment.

If I perceive a lot of violet light I can feel intuitive to the point of feeling dazed. If I perceive a lot of yellow light I can feel emotionally connected to the point of feeling teary and overly vulnerable.

But what if I perceive the light as balanced?

Well, I will take you through my experience of the spectrum.

RED – I feel quite secure and quite grounded but still prefer to have people around me.

ORANGE – I feel outspoken and comfortable asking for my needs but I have a lot of words unsaid – still inside of me – because I don’t have the opportunity or know who or where to speak them.

YELLOW – I feel emotionally connected, finding it easy to give and receive love, but then there is a lot of love that I am not sure what to do with. It doesn’t necessarily translate into making cups of tea or ironing someone’s shirt or even a hug or ‘I love you’. No – it feels bigger than those things.

GREEN – I just about manage to digest the knowledge that I am in a fact a visionary and I am raising a visionary. My head feels full of doubts and questions and a certain amount of fear but I am able to quell these and press on quite well.

BLUE – I feel single minded and full of determination whilst at the same time trusting others to help me and support me. I am however very feisty and ‘do not suffer fools gladly’. Just to add another saying ‘I call a spade a spade!’

INDIGO – I find it possible to let go and be myself without too much second guessing. Fears, doubts and questions do still flutter around quite a lot though.

VIOLET – I run with my intuition. If I think of something random to do I do it without too many questions – like this blog post. I know it feels better to run and not look around too much. My fear of my intensity is the biggest block to really letting go.

So, this is ‘my balanced’ and in many ways it doesn’t sound very balanced at all! But as a human, a visionary and a person trying to embrace my vulnerability and be real, this is as balanced as I get. Maybe I should learn to be happy with it!

I wonder what your ‘balanced’ is?

 

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Autism Mis-diagnosed – Could it be Colour Sensitivity?

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My son is 11 and has a lot of sensory processing issues, his most challenging ones being visual and sound.  When we go to see doctors, paediatricians and occupational therapists no-one knows how to help us. They don’t seem to have seen this type of sensitivity before (especially the visual processing) and they don’t seem to have seen sensitivity outside of autism.

So . . . where do they refer us? Autism testing.

I told my son about the assessment and he was quite indignant that he didn’t want to be mis-diagnosed as having autism and so he he wrote a letter to the doctor.

Dear Dr,

I am Luca and I am 11. I have an appointment to come and see you and Mum and Dad say it is about behaviour and autism.

I don’t think it will help me to come to be assessed because I think lots of people are being mis-diagnosed with autism when really they are colour sensitive.

I am sensitive to colour and pattern. I see colour and pattern different to other people. And it makes my brain do funny things. I can’t think very straight when I am in a room of a particular colour. And when people show me things on paper or on the screen I might not be able to process them. Or when people ask me questions I might not feel well enough or have enough energy to answer them. I don’t even like looking at people’s faces much or do eye contact because of the colour and patterns on people’s faces.

When I am in a room of the right colour which is really a type of white, I can concentrate much better but I might still struggle if the light outside doesn’t feel right for me or if it is sunny or if there is a blue sky.

When I go for appointments to see doctors I feel like I can’t really be me. My Mum has to speak for me and I feel trapped by the colours in the room and on people’s clothes. I can’t really show people who I am.

I don’t really mind being assessed for behaviour things or autism but I am not happy to be assessed in a place that is not right for me and then get mis-diagnosed. I feel at my best in December when the light is dim, after dark and in my house which is all neutral colours and patterns.

My Mum helped me write this letter because of my processing problem.

I hope you understand and take me seriously,

Luca