I have never understood until this year why I have so many days when I say “I feel funny today.” I say “I don’t feel right,” “I feel disconnected,” “I feel insecure” etc. I could never find the reason for the feeling. I had got up in the morning with the same expectations of life as yesterday but suddenly felt thwarted by ‘the funny feeling.’
Only this year I started to have an inkling that it had to do with my experience of light so I became a light watcher! Every day for 6 months I have studied my reaction to light. These are my findings in their simplest form.
Summer – There is a lot of blue light around and this can make me feel alone – like I am all alone in the world – but of course I’m not!
Autumn– There is a lot of green light around which can literally give me indigestion and make me feel out of sorts. There is a lot of red light around which can make me feel warm and safe or if there is too much, hot and agitated. There is a lot of yellow light around which can make me feel a bit down-hearted.
Winter – There is a lot of red light around which makes me feel good. There is a lot of orange light around which makes me feel a bit detached. It can be a good time to be bossy and outspoken as I don’t have a very good filter!
Spring – I haven’t been here yet. I am curious. I will keep you posted.
I know I am a bit strange seeing light like this. I mean today, (13th December) even beige is looking a little orange, but this is what I see. It helps to know why I have often said “I feel funny today!”